Becoming me

Visions and interpretations:

Vision - An experience of seeing something or someone while in a state of trance.

About two decades ago whilst attending a 5-day charismatic retreat was when I saw my first vision. It was on the 3rd day, during the praise and worship session (my favourite time) that tears began to flow insatiably. I was moved, even elated, one would say and thats when I kept seeing a very beautiful grey sky… 

The next day during worship I saw this again! This time it stayed a while longer. On the final day, a Friday afternoon, we were getting ready for worship time with a short prayer. When I opened my eyes after prayer, I saw a huge ‘zip’ appear on the top of the hall running from one end to the other. I blinked to see if it would go away. I could feel my eyes had become wide and soon the zip - as if by some unseen hand - had opened. There came down tons of doves and pigeons. I have heard of my friends talking about euphoria and hallucinations, so I thought to myself this was just one of those experiences. I decided to shut my eyes, repeatedly telling myself all is ok and its just my mind playing some tricks. “Just breathe Anu” I kept saying to myself. My body and mind relaxed. The worship had started with the musicians playing beautiful melodious tunes and the choir sounded angelic. I was beginning to forget what I saw and just then, the grey sky appeared again. 

My eyes were shut so I knew I was seeing this like a dream. The sky looked like it was going to rain. As I stayed looking at this image, the sky parted and I felt myself moving into that space. Above, it was crystalline blue and white. I felt very light and saw to my right, a wooded barricade studded with jewels like rubies and some other coloured stones. There was a man who was in a long robe - his hands showing me to go further upward. And I kept moving upward…the sky was more white. To my right another barricade appeared. It was made of crystalline water and studded with diamonds (though known to us as hard objects they looked alive, fluid and translucent). Inside the barricade was a space that looked very sacred. A warm yellow light was coming from what looked like a cave. As I peered in, I saw an eye. In a few seconds, it moved and I saw an imprint of a foot and then that moved and I saw a cross. 

It took many years for me to understand how to ask for the interpretations. All I had to do was ask!When I did, the answers flowed. One such interpretation guided me with the understanding to be a witness (Cross) and to see with the eyes of love (Eye); to walk the middle path with the Spirit (Foot) whilst shouldering my responsibilities. When the Great Spirit answers your questions, you are transformed by default. There is no more doubt.

Having come to the Shamanic path, visions seem the most natural way one can walk closer with the Great Spirit .